OOC: 'Cause, what the hey, it's a fun exercise.
I guess I just don't see what's so weird about it.
It's one of the few things in my body that I'm comfortable with. I guess I can't really expect you to understand that, since your current body is pretty much the same as the one you had in our first life, right? But it's totally different for me, like having been three completely separate people. It doesn't change how I feel about you or anyone else, but it's the truth.
Having a tail, instead of a normal human set of "equipment," feels right for me. I just don't fit into the whole gender binary thing anymore, and it'd be weird if my body did. I can't really explain it all that well, but it's nice. And yeah, I like being able to wrap it around people. It's a kind of closeness that just comes with the territory for me. I love you. I want to be able to hold you close with everything I have, I want to wrap around you and...
Well. Um.
But the point is, I can never be normal. I can't even really be human. And it hurts so much when you flinch away from me because I'm not. I want to say that I'd give it all up for you, that if I could, I'd go back to being human, if that was what you wanted.
But I can't, because that would be a lie, and I can't lie to you like that. I LIKE being how I am now. I love it, because even though I didn't get a say in becoming this way, I get to decide if it's what I want, for the first time in my lives. I just wish that you liked it, even just accepted it, instead of hating it the way you do. Just accept me for who I am now, instead of hinting that you want to change me.
((But if you wanted to stroke it a bit, that'd be... really nice? Yeah, let's go with that.))
